“What feels like the end is often the beginning.”
I saw this this afternoon on the Today Show’s Instagram. I needed this today. “What feels like the end is often the beginning.” As you hopefully know by now, I try to be positive. But, there are some days where it just might be a little harder to coax it out than others. Feeling a little lonely and a little “out of place” for lack of a better phrase today. This morning I woke up and just couldn’t decide on what to do. I took Bell for a walk in the brisk fresh air. It helped to get out. But, I still had no motivation or inclination to do anything.
“What feels like the end is often the beginning.” I know with all of my heart and soul that me losing my job was the very best thing for me. But, I still feel like I’ve been floating. A little background- I have always had an interest in teaching. I briefly thought about a career change several years ago and wound up chickening out after attending the informational meeting. One of my favorite parts of Human Resources was training. I feel like all of the people I know that love their jobs are teachers. So, I thought this would be a good opportunity for me to try substitute teaching. I figured though it wouldn’t give me the whole picture of the day in the life of a teacher, it would give me a glimpse. I will save my very first venture as a substitute for another time as I think it is kind of humorous, but for today, I’m focusing on the mere fact of trying something new. “What feels like the end is often the beginning.”
I’m seriously thinking about becoming a teacher some two months later. Not sure if that will actually come to fruition or not. I’m truly trying to keep all of my options open and I don’t know what will happen. I trust that everything happens for a reason and I am proud of myself for being brave enough to try something new. And I sure am trying something new. However, this doesn’t change the fact that I still feel like I’m floating around at times. Sometimes I still need to remind myself that it is okay not to have it all figured out. As long as I am working hard and have an open mind it will be okay. And I am sooooo thankful for C and his support. Obviously there is a financial impact and that is always at the back of my mind, but he’s so supportive and it makes it much easier for me. He is my partner in this crazy life and wants me to figure it all out as much (sometimes maybe even more) as I do.
So, even though Sundays are usually my day off from working out, when my brother asked if I wanted to run, I obliged. The company and the run itself was of course what I needed. Some days it might be a little harder to find that positivity, but it’s always there. And I just need to keep reminding myself that “What feels like the end is often the beginning.”
Cheers!